| I was mad/upset for a couple of days...
but still hoping this person would call..
even though this person doesn't know I'm mad..
I was at least hoping a call or a text asking 'what's up'..
But nope...now I'm even more disappointed...
and even a little regretful for being so mad..
damn I'm weak.
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| Great. Everytime I lay down in bed to sleep it off, I start crying. Why the hell am I so pathetic?
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| Last time I wrote on here was 2008..and now I'm back...
I'm surprised I remember my password..
Well...I'm here for a reason today...and I only ever write on here now is when I need some seclusion..
I mean..no one really checks xanga anymore right?
It's just what I need..
I feel really hurt right now.
So hurt...that.....I think my heart is aching..
I don't know...never really had this feeling before..so I guess this is heartache..
I feel like a retard because I feel like I'm overreacting..but I really can't help it.
I don't want to feel & be this way..
I can't believe I come off to you as I was begging.
Do I sound that desperate? Because I care too much?
Not only am I disappointed, but I feel like a complete failure.
I rather sound like I'm nagging than begging. God, I just feel so stupid now..
I can't even tell if I'm pissed off at you or just upset at your words..
I can't believe something under 140 letters can hurt so much...
I hope these tears are worth it...cuz I feel like shit right now..
I hope I'll feel better tomorrow...or maybe even be able to brush it off..
I don't want this feeling to stay.
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| this is so gay....why does this shit happen to me?
it's so annoying! this shit gets old...you know that..
why would you push it??
fucking shit...
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| i recently realized...how this guy i hated feels..
i'm starting to think i was too harsh on him..
because i am pretty much went through what he went through..
i have been having a lot of mixed feelings lately...
i feel like such a bad person. i am starting to feel tired of someone i shouldn't..
i want to run away....but i can't...but yet i am so annoyed...
arghhh...damn...this is so hard for me...
i realized i don't like it when people don't act real infront of me...
they can't be themselves and they have to act like others...
i hate when people copy others....why can't they have their own opinions and thoughts?
why do they act so fake?
i'm starting to realize i let the wrong people go and accepted the wrong people into my life..
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck! i secretly have feeling of regret in my heart.
And it's so hard to keep it inside of me.
i am feeling disgusted and nasty...
i hate this...i wish things were back to the way it use to be.
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